When the one you love dies the path you took together suddenly stops abruptly in front of a huge hole and you spend an indefinite amount of time trying to creep round it, without peeping in too much. There have been times when I feel bad about not keeping everything going as Worth did, photos, website, watchbeast etc. But I was talking to another widowed lady the other day and she was telling me about all the things she did. I said “But don’t you sometimes think you are just doing stuff to fill the hole.” She said, “Isn’t that what we all do?”. This struck me as a bit tragic but probably true, also pretty sure Worth wouldn’t want me to live my life trying to fill the hole. I also thought that if I try to carry on the same life without him, I will miss him forever. So I’m thinking the best plan for me is to find a parallel path that is mine, new and in sight of his and I’m working on it. I’m getting there these days buy you need a lot of courage and commitment to do it. I think that is what he’d want me to do but it’s so much easier to crumple.
Groovy Word of the day: succumb